***Joel A-Z (B)***

B is for balance.

Months ago my sister was complaining how she constantly felt torn in her life. Does she spend a few hours to clean the house or take a nap? Why does she waste time listening to people who complain about how unfulfilling their lives feel when she needs (and, sometimes wants) to work out.

I know the feeling. I constantly feel torn trying to decide what I want to do versus what I have to do. Do I spend the evening picking up the clutter around the house or do I hit the gym to get my weight under control? Do I participate in NaNoWriMo next month or devote the time researching decorating ideas? And so on. And these are "immediate concerns": I worry about the desire to rest versus getting a second job so I can purchase that new car/pay down debt/buy new clothes or more books, etc.

Sometimes I admire youth's single-mindedness or folks who can just absolutely focus. I've tried a couple of times and become even more frustrated as people--who were used to me running around taking care of their requests--think I'm now being selfish.

The "B for Balance" is to figure out a way where I feel I'm accomplishing most of my goals without throwing everything out of kilter. Already I note I'm responding to this imbalance by throwing up my hands and ignoring them.

Sigh.