My Heart Has Moved On

Years ago, before I met R., I had broken up with my now ex, JC. My...loins...though, were figuratively attached for some time after I had left and didn't "break" until a year later. How? I had developed an attraction to a cast member on Melrose Place and the realization of the fact made me laugh long and hard.

I'm experiencing a similar feeling now. Decades ago, I met BSW, my first major crush, and the feeling never fully faded away. While it has had no affect on my relationship, I've always been secretly miffed that I couldn't shake it. But little changes in my tastes and what are my standards of beauty finally had an impact. A couple of weeks ago, one of them more attractive regulars at the coffeeshop came into view and stayed there most of the evening. I couldn't help but continually glance up from my keyboard. I noticed that whenever my mind conjured up BSW, that regular, A., instead appeared, and the differences, physically, between the two showed how much my taste had changed.

I wonder what my next "emotional" growth will be.